Cerita Pendek - Short Story - Amber, I Do It For You.

                “Amber, don’t you know that Doughlas really love you?” I can hear Fay asking Amber at the college library.

                “I know Fay, but he was a playboy, don’t you know?” Amber asking Fay back.

                “I see Amber, but he was get sweet and make a full of sacrificed. I’m never see him with any girl in several month since he say that he love you at the first time.

                “Oh yeah, but I’m still hesitant his feeling, Fay.” Amber answer Fay statement.

                “I get it.” Fay keep nodding and continue her reading.

                “May I gone to siting in here?” I asking Amber and Fay who still reading a book. There is no answer but they nod without seeing, like agree.

                We are not having a conversation, just silence and I see Amber taking Fay to go. “Back to class girl’s?” I asking to they and walking behind Amber and Fay. We are in the same class but I know the class gone to start one hour again.

                “Don’t try to follow me.” Amber talking loud.

                “Why? I just want to know you. We are in the same class but never having a good conversations. What’s wrong with me?” I’m asking to Amber louder.

                “Because you are a bad boy, you always leave a girl who have been sleeping with you.” Amber talking with unconditional breathing.

                “I’m become different Amber. I leave my past for a long time from the first time I met you.” I bent down my head like a looser.

                “Give me an evidence.” I can’t believe what I hear, Amber give me a chance.

                “What do you want Amber, I will give you anything, I do, I do for you.” I’m talking loud because I can’t keep my happiness.

                “I don’t think you gone to do but, I challenging you to petrify me for caring my Grandfather at the old folk’s home every week end. Don’t you?” I can see Amber said with wrinkled smile.

                “I do it for you, everything.” I answer Amber’s challenge certainly. I don’t know what can I do but I just want to make her to know my felling’s.

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                I come to Amber’s grandfather room every Sunday and treat him. I make Amber’s grandfather impressed and Amber parents visiting sometimes but not every week. It’s worth it, right. Amber’s challenge make me closest with her family. And in this situation after I try for two month Amber became my girlfriend. I don’t know whether she was happy or perforce but Amber’s tell me that I was the first boy gone to treat her grandfather like my family. And she was happy for it. I can see it from her eyes.

                But everything gone to change since Fay talk to me about her disease.  Fay talk to me, her live not for a long time. She said can’t to talk Amber because she was a very good friend to Fay. Fay won’t to make Amber sad if Amber know the truth. Fay have a brain carcinoma. I can’t handle my feeling to imagine that’s hurt. and I don’t know how I can kissing Fay at the time. All that happened so fast until Amber come to me and picking me to a stranger place.

                “Amber, what are you doing?” I’m so scare when I saw Amber take the knife in her hand.

                “I’m doing nothing Doughlas, why your foot’s vibrating?” Amber asking while bring the knife close my face.

                “I’m afraid Babe, don’t do that, please.” I moving her to pity.

                “I told you, I’m not doing anything.” Amber’s face hair – raising, the knife almost skewer my face.

                “So, why that knife still your hand? It hurt’s my face.” I just want to make you to know that my heart have a painful more than your little wound.

                “Oh Babe, I told you, I’m not doing what you think with Fay.” I try to explain my girlfriend.

                “I see you come out her room and kissing. Oh my God, I don’t think that she was treacherous our friendship.” Amber’s get uncontrolled breath.

                “No, please listen to my reason, first.” I try to make Amber know because the real story is not same with Amber’s mind.

                “Ok babe, please tell me about your essay.” I can’t believe what I hearing but she tell something in my ear. “But I can’t believe anything.” Amber decide the rope who snare my hand and talk to my eyes. “Go away and forget me, our relations just enough.”

                “Amber, I love you, I still love you, I’m so sorry. Please don’t leave me alone.” I embraced her fervently.

                “Just go away.” Amber’s voice husky, her tears falling to my hand.

                I hug her immediately. “Amber, don’t you remember how hard my sacrificed to get you? Don’t you remember about our journey? Our loving memory?”

                “Doughlas, I can remember every steps of our journey but I do remember you with Fay, every second, every minute, I can’t delete from my memory. Don’t you get my feelings?” Amber’s can’t handle her tears again and crying in my hugs.

                “I love you. I love my girl. Stay with me, you have to believe, I just excessive. I promise I not doing like that with anyone. Please forgive me, Babe.” I’m still hug her.

                “You have to thinking about the chance before do anything. Because I won’t give you a chance to brim me back. This drama gone to enough soon. Let me go.” Amber make a hard smile and running from me.

                I drop my body to the wall. It’s too hard because I just kiss Fay to calm her about Fay’s problem. It that wrong? Oh, why girl’s mind make me mad. I’m going crazy, better I’m going to pub and enjoying the night with any girl who never angry with your treatment.

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                “Hi… Doughlas, you never come here for a long time.” A man accost to me.

                “Hallo Max long time no see.” I response his accost.

                “What’s your problem dude? You look so pale.” Max come close to me.

                “Girl’s problem. You know that I’m already change when I met Amber. I’m never come here or just sleeping with another woman. You know that I come to religious to not get drunk and anything. Every my sacrificing is not mean when I kiss her friend. So simple, right?” I talk to Max with pressuring sentences.

                “I have been feeling like you. I’ve get the denied but I was wrong. I’m losing the better girl and you can see my live, now. I have no future, my daily living not to be taken seriously. It so hard to get better woman like that. A modern girl’s is just materialistic, having anything for money, don’t have a sincerity. You have to bring her back, or you get the deplore.” I’ve never see Max talk to serious like this before. Max ten years older than me but he never get marriage yet. Max wasting his time here with the whore. I’m walking around and taking my car. I don’t know what can I do but I know that I just have to come Amber’s flat.

                I crushed the bell beside Amber’s door and she came out. “What are you doing here?” Asking Amber fast.

                “Please Babe, come back to me.” It’s looking stupid but I sniffed out Amber’s foot and crying.

                “Hi, you don’t have to do this Doughlas, just wake up now.” Amber’s talk loud.

                “No, before you forgive my fault.” I tell.

                “Ok, I forgive you. Now wake up and go. I have to go sleep.” I know she talk to make me surrender. I know Amber still mad. I have no answer and still crying on his foot. Loud and taking louder. “Ok Doughlas, come into my room.” Finally Amber give in and I completely remove my tears.

                “Sit down here, I bring you a hot chocolate, wait a minute.” I obey Amber’s command and stay in her sofa.

                “Drink it.” Amber give me a mug hot chocolate and a pastries.

                “Thank you.” I’m talking with smile. We just silence for a long time, gone to clumsy and speechless. But something like this really me happy. “Thank you, Max. You are right.” I said in a whisper.

                “I can’t hate you even I try. I’m still loving you, Babe….” Amber’s come to hug me.

                “I do, Babe. Let’s forget everything and start from beginning.” I’m responses her hug and we just silence all the night. Just that. I’m very happy even if I just looking for Amber’s face. Whether is called a miracle love? So differently with my past, I just looking for a many woman just for having sex. But Amber make my eyes open and teach me how to love someone. Borrowing Plato’s principally of love. Love is love, love is not sticking in a physically contact. Love is more than anything and love will make you willing your sacrificed.

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