I’m Afraid

I’m not surrender

It’s not mean that I’m not missing you

I don’t want this happened

I’m not in deliberately to start

I’m gonna be so far from a perfect girl

I’m not like an ordinary girl

I’m in a lack

I’m not important

I came with empty

No friend and no money

I come here for take my future

Don’t have to get you as my friend

It’s not my wish to don’t have a friend’s

But, I just afraid

I’m afraid if I can’t get an acceptance

I’m afraid to get the contemtible

I’m not sure that I wont get a conversation with you

I’m just scared if I get a wrong when I’m talking

I’m not sure I don’t wanna be like you

But I just don’t wanna fall again

As long as I always try

In order to you, you and you

So shall to look at me

Look at the slight flesh who wants to be your friend

Even if I want to be amongst you

To get a listener and reputed

Gonna missing when I go far

I don’t wanna make you hate me

Go far from me and almost die

I don’t wanna make it happened

But, I just afraid

Afraid of your mad

Oh, everybody’s who know me

Maybe you think that I’m a freaky girl

Living without an attitude and social psychoanalyst

Who always failed to stay live although in a small cluster

I’m with no effort

I’m not let your anger come and come

I just can’t to tell the truth

About my afraid sensation

I’m never get a brave to speak with you it’s not true if you think I’m happy to see you so far

I just afraid if I told you something and make you more and more far away

Sometimes I hate my words

I can’t to string up the words better

Until, to much people ask my ethics

Finally I’m down to the same hole

As much as this

The tears feel’s not be needed

So, I know now

The truly is impossible to coerced you or they to love me